Hello friends, I’m sorry it has been so long since I have posted. Here’s an update; I started to explore myself deeper. I now know that self love is more important than anything in the world. Here’s a little bit on how I feel.
As the waves of love crash down on me i realize that in the back of my head they will never love me the way I do them. As this distant thought gets closer and closer I begin to realize the truth of what is going on. As I lie in my bed trying to fall asleep every night in pain, they are talking to another enjoying their time and conversations just like us before. It hasn’t been a long time, but what I can say is I fell for them because of their words and actions and the same reason I fell is the same reason my heart has been ripped out of my chest.
This sounds depressing, it is. However, this experience has showed me a lot of gaps in my memories that I didn’t know I had. I feel more free. And I feel better than I ever have.
I went to the beach and read a couple of chapters of my new favorite book “Tallgrass” it is a book about sending the Japanese into concentration camps right after the bombing of Pearl Harbor. It’s sad but it is so good because it goes through the child’s perspective.
Anyways the beach was much needed getaway time. It felt good to be alone smelling the ocean breeze and hearing the waves crash while the words on the page whisked me away into another dimension. It was peaceful.
My first tattoo will be “tranquility” because I now realize how important it is to have that down time for your mental health.
Until next time I love y’all!
-beth❤️
Beth’s connections 